Finally got the key of the new home yesterday. I have dreamt for this day for agesssssssssssssssssss. I always thought that I could do whatever I want in my own home, without any disturbing. However, I am not feeling happy and excited at all. I should be feeling happy and excited since it is our 1st home, shouldn't I? What's come up to my mind is jux frustrated, pissed off and depressed. What's wrong with me? Have you ever tried you have lost the right of control? I have got lots of ideas for my own home but end up I have lost the control. What could I do?

It is jux like u know there is a way to ur own Palace but before you are getting there, lots of the sadnesses you have to face and tones of the problems ur have to solve them out. I am not sure whether I could over come with them all, I am tired..............................